Food is almost too easy a subject. Everybody has something
to say about food. Some people never stop talking about it. Sometimes we realize
we've become those people ourselves. 'And
the food? You can't believe the food.'
It's our definition of a good time.
What do we
do to have fun? Let's have a party. What's the secret of a good party? Experts
say it's the food.
What will
we do when the guests come to visit? Let's go out to eat! Anybody know a good
restaurant?
So the optional theme of the September issue of Verse-Virtual, the online
poetry journal to which I contribute each month, is food. Alas, I have already
written about this rich and universal theme in a poem called "Invitation
to the Feast," published on Verse-Virtual a year ago. On closer inspection,
the poem which begins this way...
I'd like to start with some
Inspiration Soup. A small bowl if it's strong enough.
I'm leaning to Puccini, and if you have something off of "La Fanciulla del West," I'd be in emotional-culinary heaven. (Add a dash of emoticon if you're of a mind to.)
I'm leaning to Puccini, and if you have something off of "La Fanciulla del West," I'd be in emotional-culinary heaven. (Add a dash of emoticon if you're of a mind to.)
... is not really about 'food' -- the various sources of
nutrition -- but about the rituals.
So once
again when the 'food theme' crossed my mind, it was not what we eat, but the
act of eating, the role of eating, that stirred my appetite for words. More central
than what we eat, the act of eating is the central activity, and ritual, of
a successful, long-lasting life. It keeps us going in more ways than we easily
enumerate. Do not mistake me, we are fascinated by what we eat. Probably always
have been. But it's the "let's eat" button pushed continually by our
brain that triggers the whole human behavioral repertoire.
Our eyes
open: a new day. Even if nothing else summons us -- no job to do; no
responsibilities -- we might lie around in bed for what, an hour or two?, before
the idea of breakfast gets us out of bed.
Eating eats
at us.
But what
happens if you have no appetite? This condition has appeared only a few times
in my fortunate span of years. The only times that endure in memory are directly
following surgery, probably the only extended periods when I have had to force
my body to learn how to eat. When the whole idea of consumption was not only unappetizing,
but positively repugnant.
A life
turned upside down. Eating is not only the activity that keep us going
physically, it's the activity that tell us who we are. Who am I without it?
Anywhere here's the poem that confronts that fraught circumstance:
Appetite Post-Surgical
My food is eating me
When I lie down my stomach sits up,
this sick center of mortal existence
Which of us will digest the other?
Indigestible me:
a pain additive
choked down with every feeding
grows at length into a bigger pain
until it alienates my affections
from the act of consumption,
then goes on to sitting, standing, reclining,
working up to breathing,
even as we cease to speak
Food and I are at an impasse,
a no-go zone
I lounge in my bed sheets,
recalling a lustier fellow at table,
eating everything in sight
'These skinny guys,' a portlier colleague once remarked,
with some ire,
'who can eat so much pizza'
Pizza free, he's hiding in there somewhere,
that long-ago lithe fellow reliably good for dessert,
desperately seeking to eat his way out
My food is eating me
When I lie down my stomach sits up,
this sick center of mortal existence
Which of us will digest the other?
Indigestible me:
a pain additive
choked down with every feeding
grows at length into a bigger pain
until it alienates my affections
from the act of consumption,
then goes on to sitting, standing, reclining,
working up to breathing,
even as we cease to speak
Food and I are at an impasse,
a no-go zone
I lounge in my bed sheets,
recalling a lustier fellow at table,
eating everything in sight
'These skinny guys,' a portlier colleague once remarked,
with some ire,
'who can eat so much pizza'
Pizza free, he's hiding in there somewhere,
that long-ago lithe fellow reliably good for dessert,
desperately seeking to eat his way out
Another
poem in the September Verse-Virtual also plays fast and loose with the way we
think about eating. It's called "Food for Thought." The opposite of
my "no appetite" poem, this one is about the drive we sometimes feel
to 'consume' experience.
How was the
show? 'We ate it up! We loved it!' We danced in the aisles (literally, or
figuratively).
But not
only do we want to eat up the world, sometimes there are things -- forces -- that want
to eat us. In this state of hominid development, we're not particularly worried about lions
and tigers, as we once were when we were little tree-habituated creatures
trying to last out a winter in a cave.
Runaway
appetites is the theme for this loosely-strung effort titled "Food for
Thought." As the title suggests, the metaphorical expansion of the notions
of food and eating is, as the expression goes, as big as life. Here's an exerpt:
...A monster is loose, seeking to eat us all,
as we scurry down the alley-way of tomorrow,
today already consumed (used up; no good any more)
The glass and steel towers zoop us up,
giant anteaters with air-conditioned intestines,
butts litter the sidewalk
We will eat this day through a mound of doughnuts
taller than the Imperial Nation Building,
consuming the century that is no longer ours...
as we scurry down the alley-way of tomorrow,
today already consumed (used up; no good any more)
The glass and steel towers zoop us up,
giant anteaters with air-conditioned intestines,
butts litter the sidewalk
We will eat this day through a mound of doughnuts
taller than the Imperial Nation Building,
consuming the century that is no longer ours...
You can
read the rest, and all the other poems this month, at http://www.verse-virtual.com/robert-knox-2016-september.html
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